I’m typing this from mobile so there might be some typos. For the last couple days, I have started to have developed what I think is a sinus infection. It’s started as some mucus in my throat and escalated last night to pressure around my head and some light pain.
This afternoon the pain really amped up. Deep throbbing when I laughed or breathed too heavily through my nose. This evening it really escalated. I prepared to go the hospital. I was preparing because I was worried this was connected to my AVM, something my doctor told me was removed completely two years ago.
After all the surgeries and physiotherapy, I went to talk therapy for a while. I think it was too early; my mind wasn’t ready to process what it had gone through. I went to five sessions when my therapist and I mutually terminated things.
I’ve lurked on here for a while. I’ve never really posted much because any time I wanted to, I was overcome by a guilt of how strong my recovery was. I made myself feel unwelcome in one of the most welcoming places online I know of.
So that is why I am posting now. Though I was blessed enough to have a strong physical recovery, I am mentally always teetering—one head pang from panic. I realize that while my physical disability is minimal, my mental anxiety will follow me as long as I don’t confront it. Thank you for all your support.