Hey Kev,
Ohh, me too Kev.
For many, many years I’d been telling medicos ‘Something’s not right’ but been told I was wrong, so I ignored it all. Was told it was all psycho-somatic, a figment of my imagination, ‘…it’s all in your head…’, little did I know just how real that last statement was. Then add 10-15yrs, they came out with the line ‘Ohh, look what we found…’ as if it was all some new discovery. My blood boiled instantaneously and that Dr, he got an earful of language that can’t be repeated here Then they operated, telling me ‘All fixed’ only it wasn’t. I tried to tell them again ‘Something’s not right’ but got the response 'Well, I’m the dr, I’ve done years of study, so I know… …You? you’re just the patient, you wouldn’t know…" Luckily, my wife was with me, otherwise I’d likely have punched the man in the nose. Arrogant sod. Three months later and I was back on the operating table again.
In that 3 months I’d rolled every scenario over and over and ov… in my head. My thoughts for the 2nd surgery was ‘I’ve been here before, I got through the last surgery, so I know what’s coming and I’ll get through this the same…’ only it was nothing like the same. So when they came out with the ‘All fixed’ line again I let rip and the dr was under no misinterpretation that I might have accepted his explanation. I did not.
I ‘can be’ quite articulate, I ‘can’ choose my words carefully and I ‘can be’ very diplomatic in my approach BUT when I get stressed/symptomatic my vocabulary shrinks, my choice of words is direct. No niceties, no diplomat, and if you don’t get the message the first time round you’ll get told again (including expletives), “…now do you understand!!!” Well, that Dr labelled me as a non-compliant patient and that label followed my file everywhere. So, I’d advise a word of caution in being too direct.
My experiences with medicos have not been great and this has tainted my view, somewhat. I think if you find a good Dr, grab a hold and don’t let go. They can be very hard to find. I did have a good one, but he retired and since then, not great.
Now, well, I’ve pretty much given up on find that elusive ‘answer’. I don’t think there is a single answer. As I’ve said to others ‘The medicos like the A+B=C theory (Condition A + Symptom B = Diagnosis C) but that’s way to simple for me. For me it’s more like A+B-CxD/F√G… and every one of them is variable, so the outcome, well, that’s anybody’s guess’. I’ve had to learn to manage the best way I can, if that’s rest, if that’s medication, if that’s a change in task, if that’s a change in environment, that’s exactly what I do. Whatever works for me on that day, at that time.
But, what I have found very beneficial is hearing from others that my oddball symptoms aren’t all that oddball at all, others having gone through neurosurgery report some very similar experiences. I needed to hear that because it can all be very isolating, not many people go through all of this. It’s been Ben’s Friends that has allowed me to do that.
Merl from the Modsupport Team