My story is unique like most I guess but I am in no way embarrassed or concerned about being upfront
Long post but i feel it has some good info
I had depression and anxiety and very mild paranoia (you’d more call it not trusting of people really) and we didn’t know why do I was put on a high dose of a big mix of drugs but it didn’t work.
I had also had very bad headaches for years and my eyes felt like they were popping out of the sockets so I used mild painkillers (non opiod) 24/7 and eye drops 24/7. All the drs i saw ocer the years just saud i had dry eyes and headaches are “normal”… Not one sent me for a brain scan
I was sent voluntarily to a psychiatric facility to withdraw off the psych meds that were not working (and making me feel worse)
While there, the Dr said since you’re an ex alcoholic (quit drinking 15 years ago, still sober and always will be), we should do a scan to see if you damaged your brain from alcohol consumption.
Well no damage from alcohol! Great. But they found an AVM dural av fistula that they thought was small and probably just needed monitoring
I then went and saw neurosurgeons and they said it was my choice totally but they believe it was minor and not worth the small risk to do an angiogram. But they did say they can’t know for sure unless I have an angiogram.
After much thought, I decided to have the angiogram. The exact words of the Dr immediately after doing the angio was “That’s about to rupture” and once he learnt the intense physical work I did, he said “you’re lucky to still be alive”
So I’m super grateful that by chance they found it and I decided to have the angiogram.
The reason for the long post is partly due to explain that since I had surgery my paranoia and associated depression and anxiety symptoms have subsided and they believe the pressure from the avm on parts of my brain was causing psychological issues.
My eyes don’t hurt anymore and I get occasional headaches. So avms can cause many more things than some people realise like psychological.
I will say that I do have some depression and anxiety specifically related to thoughts about my avm but it’s very different to the symptoms prior to surgery. No paranoia etc