Haven’t been on in a long time, but just need to vent a little. I’m nearly 14 years post my initial discovery of a brain AVM, which caused a bleed. Although I have made a good recovery, the effects of an acquired brain injury haven’t left me. I deal with fatigue and short-term memory loss, but the new normal of Covid has left me very deflated. While I am NOT immunocompromised, the stimulus of this brave new world is exhausting, and quite frankly, doesn’t always make sense and becomes very hard to process. Where I could normally walk through an entrance to a mall store, I’m being squeezed into a tiny opening. (How this “limits the spread” doesn’t totally make sense. I respect that it is done, but for someone who processes things differently, it is difficult to justify.) I have to second-guess and implement additional thoughts before using a public bathroom. (Do I have my mask? Have I touched too much stuff? Am I following the rules? What are the rules, anyways??)
Just feeling really exhausted by all of it. Luckily my jobs distract me, but even those don’t make sense all the time. I walk away from a Zoom meeting with a quick panic, forgetting that the six other people were not actually with me, they are safe in their homes and we did NOT overcrowd, because you can’t on a computer!
Just trying to stop my head from spinning!