It has been almost one year since my fall. So much has changed, me , my family and my friends. My knowledge of AVM's and the unknown threat to my life I carry with me. I used to worry about the traffic and being late for appointments. I used to worry about paying bills on time. I used to worry about the weather. I used to try to do one more haircut. I used to try to just clean the house a bit more. I used to make sure the garden and yard were just so.
Now I stop and smell the air when the rain is coming. Now I catch snow flakes on my tongue. Now I rest for just a moment while looking at the new spring flowers push theirs heads through the thawed ground. Now I smile even more.
I miss my old life for no other reason than it was all I knew. I know a new life now and much like any new relationship it has been trying at times to get to know. I know now I have limitations but I also found I have different choices. I can choose to make this journey I am on be an adventure or let it be a burden, I choose the adventure! I choose the adventure because truly this is not a burden but a gift. Like all good gifts I thanked all those who had a hand in making me aware of it and repairing it. Now I share my story with as mnay who will listen, maybe I can be part of the gift of knowledge for them that maybe will be life altering for someone they love. I will "Pay It Forward".
Already I have found so many with like situations and they share their new choices with me and I with them. I now have the privledge of being a "Poster Child" for a foundation here in town that was formed on the behalf of a woman named Molly. The foundation raises funds to raise awareness for AVM's, it is called F.L.O.M. I shared it with my doctor's and my neurophyscologist. They now have more info for those who follow in my footsteps.
I love my new life.