I'm writing you guys now because I'm having the Resection of the AVM surgery on the 31st of this month. I'm doing ok I guess with the idea of having my head cut open! I'm afraid of the unknown and praying that everything goes well. I've been very irritable lately and just thinking about it makes me ILL!! If I talk about it 2 much it makes me very upset,because I have some people who thinks that its my attitude that makes this ordeal hard. I won't go into detail but lets just say, You find out who your friends are during this time of need. I don't need pity but I do need a strong support system that can help me work through this process. I've read a couple of post about the Gamma Knife and surgery and I've talk to so many doctors that I could probably write a book. I can tell you one thing the Embolizations are a freakin JOKE!!!!!!!!! According to the IR he basically thinks it did more harm than good, and I'm like WOW! You have to be freakin kidding me and I've had how many 7!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's the reason I had the seizure a couple months ago--y because the GLUE that they used to help is making things worse. My headaches are like WOAh now! I mean any smell or light can trigger these massive headaches. i can't keep a sick leave day at ALL, so I go to work most of the time feeling like a truck has run over me but life goes on right!
Well anyway HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!
