There used to be a muffler chain around the midwest (USA for those of you who are elsewhere) called “Tuffy Mufflers.” They ran a series of commercials for years that always ended with “now that’s a tuffy” and showed someone being ridiculously happy because their old run down, broken rusted car looked like new because it had a new muffler on it.
But that’s also a good saying for when things don’t make sense. And that’s what I’ve got going on right now. Yesterday and today were some of the highest pain and highest “off balance” days that I’ve had in probably three weeks. It didn’t stop me, but it sure did slow me down. It didn’t knock me off my feet, but it’s a good thing we have handrails on our stairs or I would have done a couple of face plants.
I’ve been asking myself, why? What’s up that’s different? And I haven’t really come up with an answer until I started writing this. Yesterday, on our way to a doctor’s appt with my son (long story not pertinent) we found out he forgot to check and was supposed to be at work - so flew home after the appt, grabbed work clothes and he changed in the car. Consequently I had to pick him up at 10 and didn’t get to sleep until around 12:30 about an hour and a half later than usual.
Last night, I had to go to a school open house at my daughter’s school. I graduated from that school, it’s a very good middle class white private Christian School. We used to fit that mold. Then we went from having all white kids in our family to having 3 white and 2 black (Haitian) kids in our family. So I had to go talk to and chit chat with all of the people who like to pretend that everything is going great and post all of their great vacation pictures on Facebook. High stress.
Tomorrow morning I meet with the people at the local hospital’s balance center to see if they can do anything to help with the balance issues. I’m worried they won’t.
Next Wednesday we go to the University of Michigan for a 2nd opinion from their experts.
I guess now I know why my head has felt like it’s been ready to explode the last two days.
From the bottom of my heart, thank you for being here and helping me figure it out.
P.S. And I mean that in all seriousness. I would not have written this on Facebook - and then I might not have seen it. So here’s to you!