I hope and pray for good health for everyone on here, it has been a while since I wrote on here, when I did write a year or so ago I spoke with some wonderful people.
At this moment in life I am having some overwhelming concerns about my short term memory issues and a little on my long term memory , I don’t know if this is as a consequence of the gamma knife surgery I had on the brain for my avm about 2-3yrs ago, I have been told I no longer have an avm thank god.
Now for memory issues I’m facing
I Can’t hold a conversation as conversations are 90% of the past.
What I talk about today 60% will be lost by tomorrow
I feel stupid, inadequate not relevant and a liar
I can’t explain to people as they don’t understand or believe how I can remember some stuff and not other stuff.
I am having difficulty in my relationships wife, parents, brothers sisters and rest of family and friends inevitably it is affecting my work life as I am repeatedly asking about things that have been explained to me already this is where I feel stupid.
I am at a loss as to where to go with my life and who to turn to, hence the reason I am writing about it on here, I don’t want my nearest and dearest to be affected because of my inabilities and don’t blame them the slightest in fact I’m making life hard and miserable for everyone around me especially my wife whom I love dearly, she tries her best to help but at times it feels like she doesn’t understand again she is not to blame as what is the norm to her I forget and ends up in an argument I do know one thing I never give up and will continue to the best of my ability to cope with it.
I have been writing reminders in my phone among other things for the past year but the reminders are less effective as I cannot write the whole conversation which is also not practical.
If someone on here can relate to or can advise on anything that might help me, please let me know