Thanks Susan, he's my little blessing. I don't regret having him at all and adore him. If anything, he's my reason for living. My emotional and physical recovery would have been impossible without him around. I just can't stand the idea of him suffering a consequence of my rupture/surgery. I NEED him to be okay or I'll hate myself. He really is such a perfect baby. I worried about the drugs but most of them were safe for the third trimester. My high risk OB was constantly reassuring me. I can deal with minor developmental issues, I would just be heart sick if he had any major problems. My pregnancy was so healthy at first. Overall, he's healthy at 6 months but it's hard to measure anything brain related.
My neuro surgeon said that I could have more children. Of course, you might be talking about having children while the AVM was still there. My doctors think pregnancy caused the rupture so I don't recommend anyone having children until removing the AVM. I still don't think I could bear the anxiety of another pregnancy. It's funny.... before my rupture, I prayed every day for a healthy baby. I thought I only wanted one back then and I was so worried before I had anything to worry about. Life has been pretty unfair to me and I'm trying to forgive. I still have a "small" aneurysm that is not being treated or reevaluated until this summer. My doctor keeps making me feel like an idiot for still worrying so I thought I would try to talk to people that might understand how traumatic this.
THANK YOU EVERYONE for your responses. I wish you all continued recovery.