I've been doing alot lately and yesterday ended up walking out of a meal. I said that I was unhappy and was told to pull myself out of it and that it was draining for others. So I said 'if you don't want to hear how I feel' I'm going and I went. I felt alot better once I'd left the situation. Called in sick and haven't got up all day. A friend has called by with food so that's good. I lose my appetite when it comes back. Not necessarily a bad thing.
My family were concerned. They said that the empathy bit of my brain has probably gone and it was normal for them to be concerned. I told them to leave me alone as that is how I have always dealt with it ie - waiting it out, and I am still here. Sometimes I am surprised I am still here. I am surprised that I haven't become a drug addict or similar to deaden the pain.
Flower, depression is an all too common problem amongst our members. If you've not spoken to a doctor, I urge you to do so. Medication can help so much. Counseling can also help. We are all here to listen and to offer whatever support we can but we can only do so much. Please talk to your doctor about this. You do not have to feel like this forever, I promise!
I have always been moody. As I got older it got worse. I would be fine one minute and the next feel like my world was coming to an end for no reason! I had tried several different medications but I found that Prozac or the generic worked for me. Plus adding a mood stabilizer (lamictal). I don't know what would have become of me without them. They are right. Find a good psychiatrist.One that doesn't mind taking the time to listen to you. Sometimes just having someone to listen makes all the difference. I just found out I have a left frontal AVM. I guess that is probably where all this depression or what ever it is came from.
Flower, Thank you for posting about your depression. I understand what you are feeling. My name is Rob Forsythe and I am a trained crisis counselor who has dedicated my training and years of experience to helping my fellow survivors cope. Please don't hesitate to contact me here, by email, by phone or even Facebook. The Lord led me here to live my personal philosophy after my four craniotomies for Cavernous Angioma (CA) at age 17, 40 years ago..
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