Confused and upset

Here is the link to my latest blog entry. I've been sick with the stomach bug for the best part of the week but am feeling better today on that front. However, I've had a not-so-good appointment and am not doing as well as I should be AVM-wise. I'm confused because I don't know what's going on, what I'm meant to do now and what I'm supposed to think. Perhaps I'm being overanalytical and self-pitiful and just all-over-the-place, but I hope I have reason to be, after three years of this rubbish! Have a great weekend, you're all such special friends!!!