Aargh

Today I´m angry and tired. Feels like I dont´have any strenght left. I´ve tried everything. I´ve been to the hospital and I´ve called my doctor but nothing. Why wont they help me. How sick do i have to be to get any help. My Friend ask the same questions and I have no answere. Feels like I´ll give up soon. I´m really trying to be strong, but today I just don´t have the strenght. Hope it will be better tomorrow. I know everyone is scared. I´m to. I´m scarred that I´ll get another bleed or that tomorrow doesn´t exist.
TomorrowI´ts new year and I´m gonna spend it with my friends and family. I´m really glad I have them and hope they have patients with me when I´m down.
Time to say good night. Love