So in 12 days Im turning the big 3-0 :( Im so not looking forward to it. My life is NO where near were I wanted it to be at 30. I pictured myself with a career, a home, husband, 2 maybe 3 kids, and just living the dream! Well I have most of those the husband, 1 child, the house. But then while we were trying for a 2nd child and I was looking into a career, the biggest bomb dropped into our lives my AVM. Its been over 6 years since we started dealing with this AVM journey. We thought and so did the Dr's that after 2 embolizations and 1 gamma knife we would resume our lives. That should have started in June 2010. Here we are January 2013 just waiting till November for them to start my 3rd gamma. They are making we wait the full 3 yrs and it SUCKS!!!! We cant try for another child as our son is just getting older and older. He is now going to be 9 in April. Some days (like tonight) I hate it. I just wish my life was the way I planned it and nothing was ever wrong. Yea I know that impossible but I can dream lol. Anyway thanks for reading Im just having a bit of trouble turing 30 and I know it will be fine but ugh not to start my 30's out still dealing with this AVM STINKS really really STINKS.